When I had my babies, I quit my job to be a full time stay at home mama. It didn’t happen right-away. When my first was 10 months old and started to talk and walk, I decided to stay home so I could go along with him for this amazing ride.
I loved my job and I had a pretty awesome career. I was all about the next milestone at work, the next promotion, the next big challenge. I thrived on that adrenaline rush. But it was as though a switch was flipped once I had A. Suddenly none of those things mattered anymore – watching him, holding him and just snuggling with him gave me this warm feeling that made me content.
Today, a lot of people ask me if I miss work – miss having that time where it is about me and what I do to advance my goals. And while I miss being able to get up, get dressed and go out and achieve my ambitions, there is nothing that I would trade for this time that I have got with my first and then my second born. I think that we made the best decision that worked for me and for our family. As they grow older, and need me less and less (or so I think) and will start full time school soon, I have started to think about and take baby steps towards making my way back into industry.
BUT oh the guilt! I am always filled with so much anguish as I apply to or interview for positions in the industry. So many thoughts about how I will miss out on this time that I now have with them. Sometimes I think it would have been easier had I never tasted this sweet fruit of unlimited time with them for the last three years. I really need to put on my big girl pants though and ride past that wave of emotion that hits me cause no matter when I decide to go back to work – it will be hard to leave their sweet faces behind. But I know that as a family we are strong and we will rise to this new phase of life too. My sons tell me now – mom, don’t worry, we will be ok!
For all you moms that made a choice – a choice to stay at home and be a full time mom to your kid(s), a choice to go back to work so that you can give your babies a bright, secure future, a choice to work from home so you can balance the best of both the worlds – we are all struggling to make it work, to feel like we are doing everything we possibly can to make everyone happy. I want to just tell all of us moms out there – we are ENOUGH. You are ENOUGH. No matter what choices you make – you have to know that you will always be exactly what your babies want and need.
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